Working today…on a Saturday. It’s not soo bad really, I love working with my clients. I couldn’t work for a few days and I hated it. Not just the fact I don’t get paid but also miss seeing the clients. They are like my second family.
Ok so I said I had some good news and after reading that tear jerker (at least it was for me) here’s some good stuff…
I have a job!! I work for a company called Victor&Associates I am a paraprofessional. I basically work in a group home for special needs adults. It has some challenges but so far I am in love with it. We have 6 clients 4 girls and 2 guys.
I have now lost 103 pounds!! I am 120 away from my ultimate weight goal!!! I’m so excited I can hardly stand it. 😀 it’s such a good feeling knowing what I’m doing actually changes and matters to myself and others.
Hey y’all. I know it’s been awhile. I’ve had a difficult past few months with some good moments tho.
This post is about the loss of a life. It’s taken me a few weeks to get the strength as courage to write this, but I know it needs to be said.
As of March 26,2014 I am one family member short. My cousin Kristin decided it was HER time to GO be WITH JESUS.
In sure some of y’all read that and think…it’s suicide, that’s a sin; she’s not with Jesus. First off I don’t need a comment disagreeing where I’d like to think my loved one went and Second I believe Jesus judges us by our right and clear mind, frankly your not in your right mind nor thinking clearly when when suicide is involved.
Kristin was always full of life. When we were kids she always amazed me how someone so…chunky…could be full of so much energy. She hardly ever ever sat still. She was diagnosed with ADHD, I think she was off and on different medications. She lost a lot of weight and her angel kiss wore off, she was downright gorgeous. Now idk what went on in her school, we lived in different counties but she was tormented and had to switch schools. Begin having an eating disorder, just “went off the tracks” drugs, alcohol, binging. It’s hard to love someone that pushes u away, tho I’d like to think that she still loved me dearly.
Back in January she got in a wreck. Broke 3 rib bones, broke her neck, punctured a lung, almost lost her ear, and cut her hand pretty badly. While she was in and out of conscienceness she told the paramedics that she was drunk, took a large dose of whatever pills she had and did try to kill herself.
While she was recovering in the hospital she was diagnosed bipolar. She refused rehab for her drug and alcohol problem, she also refused to seek help with her bipolar disorder.
Afterwords she moved back in with her mom, sister and stepdad. She seemed to be doing better. On her good days she found scripture and would post them on fb. Then one day she walked to her dad’s house, when on his screened in back porch and shot herself.
I’m not saying she went to heaven, but I ain’t sayin she went to hell. I know she tried her best trying to be the best, I’m not God I can’t make the calls like he can because 1) I’m not perfect nor anywhere near it, and 2) I only saw what I wanted to see, I only heard what I wanted to hear. I didn’t get to know her heart like God did.
Parents out there please love on your kids and try to get to know them…not as your kid, not as your friend…but as a person. Try to pick up signals of an illness or an addiction don’t let your pride block them to getting help.